Tuesday, September 11, 2007
on drugs.
Posted by maei at 8:49 AM
am i thinking too much?
it's like i'm on drugs. whenever a space appears in whatever i'm doing, i hit the refresh button. and the same words jump out at me.
i've finished watching the whole series of "One Litre of Tears" and at no time throughout have i felt as near to tears as i am now.
i keep telling myself it's pointless to think so much. and i keep looking to the future like how it always used to help.
kor told me, that on his next birthday, he would love to have both of us celebrating it for him. i keep picturing the scene when we were at the pub and i was yet to be 18. us on high stools, chatting away.
i wonder if that day will come.
usually, when i'm down, i try to see a year or 2 ahead, and i think that a single event in one's life is all it is, a few days in tens of years to come. i'll get over it.
wish it helped.
ah well. no point thinking so much. i've been up the whole night and thank goodness today is a short day, one tutorial and one lecture. prolly gonna give the lecture a miss.
can't help but wish i had more. but i guess that right is not mine, though he keeps telling me it is.
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