Monday, August 20, 2007
money.
Posted by maei at 4:41 AM
god i wish i had someone by me now. no need to talk. just to accompany me.
feeling damn down and vulnerable now. and fighting desperately not to cry. how is it possible for me to have spent so much without really noticing?
i'm about 50 bucks in debt, and have around 200 odd with other people. but my bank nalance is still super wudi low. and mummy has been depositing money in the account and i've spent my allowance, and the extra birthday money i got only boosts my bank account to around 230 bucks. how is that all possible?
kel has been under huge financial pressure too. and all this only started to snowball when i had to go for the preocedure.
how do we survive? am i going to have to ask for 'sponsorship' from mummy again? i think she'll die of fright when i let her know how much i have left in my account. but if i don't ask, i think she'll die of fright when she finds out by herself.
and i'm about 300+ bucks worth of driving classes behind. and i also have not dealt with my 100 bucks bill from singtel.
i need a job, but before that, i need cash.
and now i need someone by me, while i'm losing sleep over the matter. time seems to pass much faster. i don't think i can make it for school. i'm going to be damn shagged when the day hits. and then, i'm going to be behind in schoolwork too. great.
i have a proposal in mind for mummy.
do you think it'll work, if i tell her of my dire state, then ask for a 500 bucks loan, get a job and return her in instalments when i start receiving pay?
i think it's the best i can offer for now, because i'm really really really in dire straits.
but i'm really tired now, and i can't sleep. it's so much worse to try and get myself to sleep than to get myself to stay awake.
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