Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Posted by maei at 4:16 AM

thinking... thinking...

heard the song "sometimes love just ain't enough" by patti smtih over the radio just now... it's such a sad song. heard it once or twice before, but it's never struck me as so sad before. i'm sure if the next time we go to karaoke with kor and i ask for this song, kor will know what i mean. i think diana has sung this song before...

but never mind about that weird little musing.

was talking to aida during shift yesterday, and i didn't realise how deeply the politics of this office ran... apparently, she isn't too friendly with geraldine; who talks about me behind my back a lot; like i should have expected, anyway, since she talks about others to others a lot too. and the way she uses "we"... aida says that for her, at least, she just goes, "is it?", "okay", "hm..." to ward off these questions, so she doesn't back geraldine up... i personally would rather trust aida than geraldine. what cheek.

anyway, went to oscar's to eat the night before... didn't mention, right? we went there, and had a pretty good dinner. there was a pretty big variety of foor, but not all were fantastic... the desserts! ohmygodthedessertswerefabulous. haha. they had this HUUUUGE variety of desserts, which i didn't get to try all of T_T i was too full to even eat the chocs! so sad... coz the chocs are really really good. but the cake we ordered is untouched and at home, waiting for me to eat... i think when i go home, i seriously will eat it *salivates* haha.

can you believe it? i spent all my time after i returned home yesterday and before i went out yesterday sleeping!!! i reached home at around 0900, ate maggi mee, then went to sleep at around 0930. alarm rang at 1730, and snoozed til 1830. took a leak, called dear, who told me i didn't have to log on anymore, coz of maintenance, so i decided to go back to sleep. alarm went off at 1915, snoozed til 1930, and decided to reset alarm for 2000. and tada!!! i woke up with a huge shock at 2045. why? coz i set my alarm for 0800 *triple-zee* wtf?!

so i set out for work at 2110, hoping to get new headphones at HMV Citylink. but they have a total of 1 kind of phones in the range that i like... blardy. so now waiting for work to be over, then see if time is favourable for me to go HMV heerens to have a look at my phones. but before that, must really go to millenia walk to draw some cash, coz i'm so out of cash...

made like this huge embarrassment of myself in 7-eleven, coz i didn't have sufficient cash on me. when i asked if i could use nets, the guy told me i had to spend at least 5 dollars, which i clearly knew already, and i was trying so hard to cover up my shock at my empty wallet, i just acted cute and scrunched up my face, like, "huh... really ar... sad." like the issue was having to spend 5 dollars before i can use nets, and not that i was caught without cash on me. wahaha. thank goodness the cashier was a male... if it was a female, i'd just look totally dumb. haha.

spent half of my time online tonight searching for the opening hours of HMV heeren, and nothing, NOTHING! could be found... only that the heeren opens from 10am to 10pm daily... let's hope the shops open at 10am too... i took down their number too, tho' and can call to check, provided i'll be out til then.

anyway, my handphone's pretty much wasted now, coz aida's phone's flat, and i lent her my battery. gotta get it back from her later. please remind me.

oh my. i just realised what i said. lol. remind me *triple-zee* bleargh >_< my brains are being eaten up... have to go for pract this evening some more. which essentially means i won't get to play, AGAIN. and when was the last time i got to play? trying to think back now... that was when i got to take daddy's ride to work... which was... friday night? wow! can't be that long, right? right... that night, i levelled up, so it must have been saturday or sunday night that i played for the 30% on my level 39. anyway, i'm sure i blogged about it.

it's sucky, how once the idea of a break-up occurs, it gets so roote in your brain, one of you must do something to eradicate the idea, or it will really really occur. i feel like looking for kor to talk about this. to tell him just how i feel, coz i'm sure if i tell kel about it, he'll just be pissed, and if he just randomly finds a job, which he won't stay in, it's just going to repeat itself again and again... and it'll just end up being a waste of his time... but i don't want to be another person who's going to dump a rock in his well, and make it deeper.

it's just like the song goes, "now, i could never change you -- i don't want to blame you..." it's a confusing feeling... what i said didn't come out too accurately about how i felt anyway, it's just soooooo difficult to express what i'm thinking at the moment... haiz.

sian. this whole affair is making me tired. drained. and it's like plagueing me. i realise i can't seem to get out of this loop... it's a recurrent complaint that seems to have taken permanent residence in my blog.

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