Monday, November 14, 2005

Posted by maei at 7:10 PM

i am evil

it's true. i don't know what prompted me to type this, but i'm seriously seriously wondering if everyone else finds the papers hard, or easy. and i'm growing more relieved with every "hard" i hear.

this is terrible >_< math paper 2 was tougher than usual, chem paper 3 was a killer. now, even physics paper 2 was tough. and GP was just plain weird. i think we hit a suay year. haiz. or maybe these are just my pathetic excuses for realising a levels are not as easy as i've expected. hm.

BUT! i've only got three more papers to go, before i'm free.

a list of stuff i'll be doing:

- bleaching my hair (streaks)
- going back for practice
- watching GoF
- planning for tokito
- going to genting
- going for class chalet
- going for prom
- going for EoY event
- going for pa camp

and lots of other "want-to-do's" that i'll be doing, all in platinum streaked black hair. wahahaha!!! of course, i'd be looking for a job too, preferably in sales, so any lobangs, please let me know. haha.

speaking of which, i received a funny missed call today. when i called back, it was machine-answered and it said, "thank you for responding to 'blah-blah' newspaper advertisement for a job as a financial planner..." like O_o what the hell's going on here? FINANCIAL PLANNER. i'll be a planner for you. the kind that has boxes you can write on.

hm... can't wait for my exams to be over.

my tooth is still hurting like mad every few hours...

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Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Posted by maei at 12:32 PM

the dreadful a's

no, i do not mean the results. yes, i do mean the exams.

"the a's have been like a roller coaster ride for me", said angela. "just 20 hours ago, i stepped out of the exam hall and thought, 'hey, maybe there's hope for an a on my maths.' and 20 mins ago, i'm saying, 'please, oh please, let there be moderation for chemistry.'"

angela hopes that she is not alone.

further research has shown that hwa chong junior college, the pre-university institute in which angela is currently enrolled, has amazing achievements in the academic arena. they have produced results showing that approximately two thirds of the examined cohort achieve a minimum of 3 disinctions in the a level examinations each year.

"having 3 a's is the norm in school, i guess," said a depressed angela. "the teachers are contradicting themselves -- on one hand, the chemistry unit tells you that you are indeed above the national average, on the other, the physics unit tells you that any slip, and you're not going to do well. you want to believe the chem teachers, but your results in hwa chong just deny you the luxury."

"i guess the only thing you can do is to chiong chiong and chiong some more. you don't know how you're going to do until your results come out in march next year."

she has also mentioned a curious question: when the students of the past batches stepped out of the exam halls, did they feel like they were going to do well, or wer they just on a roller coaster ride too?

(please forward your comments to "tagboard: leaning notes." @ third leaf on the left)

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Sunday, November 06, 2005

Posted by maei at 10:32 PM

guilt?

crap. i've been reading manga scans these few dyas. and playing my piano. and listening to jay chou. i haven't been as focussed, in other words. i'm feeling a kind of confidence in myself i never felt before, yet, i feel that this confidence is a false sense of security.

f*ck.

it's either i'm sub-consciously trying to stop myself from doing work, or i'm really dry of work to do. of which the latter is not really possible. maybe it's sub-conscious -- i don't do more questions because i fear i might come across more questionsi can't do, and destroy whatever little confidence i have. maybe it's coz i'm getting lazy. what if it's the latter?

i'm pretty scared now, and i just had a really really short chat with darryl that didn't help at all. thanks man, you were great. i'll reccommend all the straight a students to have a talk with you before their a's. then maybe i'll come out tops. i don't even know why i'm so pissed. maybe it's coz you hit a tender spot, by stating what i feared the most (?). but i guess i just didn't need that. i'm sorry i'm taking this out on you in my blog, but it's the most immediate tool i have.

perhaps i don't have the right to feel angry. it's likely, after all, that what i've done is not enough, in absolute terms. it might seem enough to me, because i haven't done half as much work in my life for any exams. so you might say, "no wonder you don't score."

maybe i'm just a typical leo. "a leo does not like his/her efforts go unnoticed." or maybe these are all just excuses, becaue what's an effort to me is not an effort to anyone at all.

maybe i'm just a lousy person.

blah.

my exams are coming up in 2 days, and here i am, blogging away. guess that says only so much about me, right? *dejected* i don't know what i'm going to do if i don't do well for my a's.

had intended to go read some manga scans to loosen up. but i'm all out of the mood now. going back to mug.

zZz.

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Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Posted by maei at 7:46 PM

lyrics

no, i'm not posting them... sad, right? somehow, my skin can't support chinese text. weird. so i'm going to post a link here... anyone interested in jay chou's songs' beautiful/inspiring lyrics, please click the link below. it's a site from mp3.baidu.com. yups.

click here -> gimme those lyrics!!! <- click here

yups, happy reading!!!

anyway, "ni4 lin2" is an awesome song.

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Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Posted by maei at 10:17 PM

jay chou rocks!!!

it's super-duper fangirl gushing time!!!

i'm so super happy, coz i got jay chou's album today! and guess what, it includes the mv's and a calendar (guilty: dearie told me he wanted the calendar the moment i told him there was a calendar given. but i wanted the calendar so much, so...) that is in fact picture cards of jay chou. his image is so super different from "qi li xiang" lar... he's like the soft romantic... and the talented musician who's quiet most of the time... even the songs are softer in this album.

even his raps have a singsong quality to it, and i mean it in a nice way. there's music to it. i mean, it's still basically rap, but it's not like "ren zhe" that kind. more along the lines of "zhi zhan zhi shang" that kind, but it's not so harsh. how to say lei? must must go listen.

til now, i'm pretty much stuck on a few favourites, tho' i seriously think the whole album is very nice, but i think i'll need time to familiarize myself with the entire album. i'll be listening to this playlist for a long long time...

the tops:
1.)"ye4 qu3" - nocturne
2.)"si4 mian4 chu3 ge1"
3.)"ni4 lin2" / "fa4 ru2 xue3"
4.)"shan1 hu2 hai3" - coral sea

i'm rather stuck on these few songs... but because it's such a hassle to type chinese on a com that doesn't have a chinese-typing program, except for the onebuilt in in windows, i'll refer to them by hanyu pinyin... let me give a short comment on each ba, depending on my personal opinion. this is by no means a review, and i don't mean it to be so either, but just a way to express my opinions on the songs... hee~


*ye4 ge2*

this song is, as expected, the number 1 hit in this album. it's artistic - the lyrics are beautiful, the music is awesome. i think the song is about his dead lover... and he's such a dedicated lover... it paints a beautiful picture -- a lone figure sitting in the middle of a cemetry with overgrown weeds at a black grand piano. he is playing chopin's nocturnes to his lover, whose grave is somewhere nearby. maybe there's a bouquet of white roses lying on the piano, but the roses are starting to wither and shrivel. and he just keeps playing, a look of stoic grief on his face, preferring to express his lost love thru his music than words. maybe it's just the way he is, that he doesn't have a way with words, despite being so dedicated and talented. who knows, maybe he has so much love unexpressed for his deceased lover.

it paints such vivid picture, and tho' the lyrics look odd upon first reading, they go so well with the music you just don't feel they're weird anymore. even the part about the flesh-eating ants attracted by rotting flesh sound artistic. god only knows. it's a song that one simply must listen to, with an appreciation for the lyrics. so pretty.


*si4 mian4 chu3 ge1*

this song is about the paparazzi. about his critics and about how he hates constantly being hounded by the media for gossip, and how he feels it's extremely distasteful that the reporters actually harrass his family. by the way, he refers to them as dogs.

in a rough translation, he described a scene where he was walking home, then he suddenly saw a whole bunch of dogs rushing towards him, and he wondered when he had kept so many dogs... whahaha. of course, these dogs referred to the paparazzi. then he went on about how he didn't like it that the reporters would just hound him and his family for gossip. and the way his critics try to shoot him down. but he also said that when he's at the top, nothing they do can topple him. he said smth extremely cute:

even if you can't defeat me, you can still be my dogs.

woots~ super attitude. there are loads of other things he said that really made this song great.

as you can guess, he wrote the lyrics himself. and the song has a very simple chorus comprising largely of "la-la-la's" so it's very catchy. which makes it such a nice song. the sheer attitude of it will also make you want jay chou more. ms said she wanted to marry jay chou. i'm sure many girls want that too.


*ni4 lin2* / *fa4 ru2 xue3*

these 2 songs just appeal to me. i don't have my lyric booklet with me at the moment, so i can't really make out very well what they are about. but they both have very nice music.

the first is a fast song. rappy. nice rhythm. one of the 2 or 3 true rappy songs in this album, tho' like i mentioned, even the rappy songs are wuite melodious. only he can do this. melodious raps. what an oxymoron.

the second is a slow song. his vocals are really well exercised in this song. his falsetto is awesome, tho his voice sounds a little pinched, it's still a range which many guys cannot hope to reach. it sounds good! that's the main point, coz even tho' it's a strain on his vocals (i hope it is, or i suspect he's a castrati *shudders*) he can make it sound great. nice song.


*shan1 hu2 hai3* - coral sea

nice tune. but the lyrics are rather simple. and the female singer (yes it's a duet) has a voice that doesn't compliment his. but ah well, it's got a nice tune and nice enough lyrics, tho' it's a typical love song - no, not in the sense of normal lovey dovey duets, this song is one of a break-up that occurred because neither loved each other anymore. rather sad.

the rest of the songs are all very nice too, but like i said, i haven't had the time today to listen to each in detail -- i'm easily mesmerised by my favourites and find myself going back to them time and again... hmm... maybe one day i'llr ealised that i've listed every one of the songs in this album under "tops".

but of course, that'll only be coz his album is so superb.

jay chou rocks!

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