Monday, October 24, 2005
Posted by maei at 11:12 PM
fightingthe piece gets better each time i hear it. for those who've played final fantasy vii or watched advent children, i'm talking about the track fighting from their piano collections... if you still don't get me... remember the piano piece when tifa was fighting that silver-haired bad guy in the church? yup, that's it. it's totally cool. hee~ i'm so glad i got my hands on it, thanks to yanliang. haha! bui4 kui4 shi4 wo3 de4 yin1 yue4 zhi1 ji4. maybe not zhi1 ji3 yet, coz i'm so out of touch with music, i think i don't meet the requirements to be his ka kee... haha, but he always has the nicest music to offer... i'm a LEECH!! wahaha.
anyway, it's really a damn nice song la. for those interested in some music that'll perk you up, you can look for me over msn to get it. it's super la... it's my new obsession, in terms of instrumentals. it's got the tenseness and the softness both in it... i think it's really THE song to play for the fight in the church... it's tense enough for a battle, but it's soft enough to downplay the violence and emphasize on tifa's feminity. woo~ when the loud hard parts come in, it really makes me want to type with a rhythm, and presses me to go faster... think if they have music this good for most games, i'll just turn into a full-time gamer. lol
they should have music like this, and one-winged angel on those god-damned timed quests in a3... haha, then we'll never fail the quests. or maybe i will, coz i'll be either listeningto the music, or become too ganchiong. haha.
i'm settling into my schedule well, if you wanna know, but occasionally, there'll be unpredicted stuff popping out, like lunch with my mum and bro today, that set me back by about 2 hours. haha. and consultation with mr lee that's already compounded into those 2 hours. haha.
but away from school.
jay chou's new album is coming out on the 1st of november... i can pre-order it if i want, but should i? if i do, i'll get a free poster of jay chou which i'd like, but will never pin up... or maybe i will, and replace hotohori onmy wall... never setusuna or dir en grey. haha. unless of course, i have a nice big advent children poster, then i'll remove the setsuna one... HINT: i want an advent children poster. preferably one with sephiroth, cloud, kadaj... haha!!! shuai ge!!!
i also just discovered a nice old song... not an oldie, no, just a song forgotten by many. it's bai2 se4 hun1 li3 (white wedding) by peggy tsu... it's very sad...
they should play fighting during our papers too. then we won't ever be too slow to complete our papers.
anyway, i feel good today. coz sam lee affirmed that i was doing the good thing for food chem preparations. haha. yay, not because i'm a model, but because i've gotten confirmation from someone other than myself and kel that i'm on the right track. haha!
my thoughts are very randome, just like the brownian motion of dust particles that are constantly bombarded by air molecules.
haha.
i think my blog is a bit unthoughtful sometimes... haha, i've read blogs that areso chock full of philosophy and relfections and meaningful stuff, and i think... wah, what a superficial blog i have. haha, why can't i ever have any in-depth stuff on my blog?
then i realise that i'd be the superficial one if i were to just blog about meaningful stuff just coz i didn't want pple to think my blog's superficial. haha. confused yet?
so my decision, which was made even before i blogged, is that no matter how shallow my blog is, it's going to stay this way, coz it facilitates me the best this way... gets rid of all the stuff i can't wait to babble to anyone willing to listen. haha. coz i'm such a talkative person you see, and i have so much nonsense to say i'd be rubbish if i just babble onto the phone or into the face of someone... hee~ so i'd dump the topics here, makes sense right? and you see, this way it'll be a perfectly wanching-fied blog. coz it's so wanching. like, nonsensical and erratic. wahaha!!!
i think pple will feel out of sorts if wanching started being thoughtful and philosophical.
tho i think a feel a change in myself these few days... ever since i started out with my schedule, i feel like i'm in control. and somehow i feel superior to myself. like, i don't get out of focus so much anymore. i distracted myself a little with music and immediately, i felt like i was bouncing back to the old me. but if i didn't change, where come the old and new me? hm... i think ti's something i need to reflect on... think it'll be scary if i suddenly become such a focussed person. wouldn't be a bad thing tho', but i don't think it's likely to take place overnight... i wonder what kind of a person i'll be when i grow up... am i considered grown up now? maybe i should say when i mature. am i matured? am i not? can a person be mature and not street-smart? street-smart and not mature? or maybe just plain stupid? i think the life of a tai-tai would be the most straightforward. i'd like to be a tai-tai too... but maybe in my later years ba. i want to live the life of a career woman, a housewife, and a tai-tai... hee.
but i digress.
however, with studies, i am proud to say i haven't allowed myself to be distracted much. and i realised that with an objective, actually, i can study just about anywhere, so i learnt that last time, when i said i couldn't study at home, it was just a stupid reason. why i had to mug at the library i also dunno. most pple i know mug at home now. with the exception of some classmates and oac mates who prefer to mug in school. i'm starting to like mugging at home.
and tho' my passion MAY not be in chem, chem is really rather fun to study. coz it's more challenging than physics ba. i think physics is more a si3 bei4 subject than chem in so many many ways. firstly, you've gotta know your formulae. you've got to know your concepts behind the formulae, and then you've got to know all the definitions to form your concepts. and above all that, you must be able to apply your concepts onto sums, which look nothing like words more than your toes do. so it's a whole chain of memory work except "understand your concepts" which is bullshit if you can't memorise your definitions.
but chem. ah, chem is different. chem is like a cake. it has a solid base, that's the sponge cake... those would be your basic concepts like oxidation states, charges, cations, anions, blahblah. then comes the layers of cream that separate your sponge layers... those would be the in-depth analysis of your foundations, like periodicity, structure and bonding... then you've got the fruit pieces in the cream that are the special cases, like groups 2,7 and transition metals. then you've got the cream layer on top and on the sides that wraps up your concepts, like kinetics and energetics. then you've got the other stuff, like organic chemistry, food chemistry, which are the more interesting bits of chemistry, and therefore are like the garnishings on your cake.
yup, so chem's a nicer subject to be digesting. after all, a cake always looks good to eat. of course, it's nearly impossible to finish a whole big sponge cake alone, which is the tough part of chem... there's so much to learn, that even if it's a pleasurable process, it can get tiring.
of course, when i say cakes are impossible to finish alone, i mean sponge cakes... an oreo cheesecake is a different matter. even if i have to take days to finish it up, i'd do so gladly. wahaha!!!
fighting's still looping on my com... super!!!
i haven't been sleeping well lately tho'. when my efficiency goes up, my rest goes down. until i can't rest even when it's time to do so... dunno why, my brain just keeps running around when i'm lying on my bed... can't seem to sleep until i've been warming my bed for at least an hour... and i'll wake up in the middle of the night to find myself not being able to get back to sleep. hm... i wonder why.
stress? i don't think so. i don't feel stress, but i do feel a sense of urgency to finish my stuff, like, i'll fail my examsif i don't. i think that's a form of stress ba... but i don't get like tear-hair-bite-fingernails-tap-foot-gaze-nervously-write-incoherently kind of stress... in fact, i'm feeling perfectly normal, except a constant need to do my stuff, until i can safely say i've finished my day's work. i think that's a nice change from irresponsible, whatsthatword, yes, procrastinating wanching. yup. but i still can't get over that i can't sleep proper... even tho' i don't feel the burn in my mental capabilities yet, i know i'll brun out if i don't get more sleep... help!!! if anyone has suggestions...
hm... i hate milk, by the way, so don't say warm milk. unless cold milk with cereal helps. but i don't think it will if it's the milk part of it, coz i'll pour away the remaining milk, which is about a third of what i poured out.
hm... maybe i should start by turning in earlier... at least at the end of my tossing and turning, i'd get to sleep earlier.
it's 0006hrs 25 oct now. shit. the piano tuner is dropping by later in the day... what happens to my schedule..?
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